the last sin
  pale ashen sky
a bleary eye
clouds of recurring screams...
i am a zoo
  an octopus leviathan
tentacles into an ocean
of unformed emotions...
syphilis and love  
  syphilitic pall
stifles the clear blue
i contort...
shell and pearl
  amidst highs and lows
in life's ocean flows
a shell peony-mouthed...
i am an unmarried mother
  fed on stings
of barbed milk morality
my child-plankton...
the lovers
  cell upon cell
bridge of their union
hung on the pillars...
  ogre of age
and time cavil
at a warm picture...
the young today
  innocence thaws
at the altar
of ambition...

am i gonna fly?

am i gonna ride the wind?
am i gonna take the wind out of my sails?
am i gonna miss you?
am i gonna miss having you?

am i gonna be sober when I meet you?
am i gonna drink myself silly?
am i gonna take the elevator to the top floor?
am i gonna sink into the quicksand of desire?

am i gonna take the plunge?
am i gonna give in to control?
am i gonna be exiled?
am i gonna circumvent the globe?

am i gonna rule the well?
am i gonna kiss the princess?
am i gonna pretend to love your mind?
am i gonna seek salvation in abstinence?

am i gonna be a virtual houdini?
am i gonna be a real phantom?
am I gonna wander the night skies?
am I gonna be grounded?

am i gonna be your long distance knight?
am i gonna be your in the box demon lover?
am i gonna be light with responsibility?
am i gonna be heavy with freedom?